Dedication to my Shepherd

I thank God for this brother and shepherd. His love shows me Jesus' love. I am so affirmed that Jesus lives in us. He is the inspiration to bring my heart to God. Learning his life is a great testimony of our living God, who loves us, changes us and never short-change us for what we gave to Him. Bro knows magic, not the magic tricks he entertains us with, but by the words spoken out of love. "I am your spiritual brother." he said to me. What comfort in Jesus! My life with Jesus begins through him in Christ and the magical and powerful word God put in him.

But I don't think he will see this post any sooner? He is too busy to come online I think? I just wanna say that a thousand thanks can't express my appreciation for him. He is God's messenger to me, and a microwave oven for my heart. A vacuum for my thoughts. A vase for my experience with God. A vase because it is used to store and sustain flowers(my spiritual life). I love you shepherd! But sorry I gotta make you lose face abit. Please scroll down...

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This is him.
At my water baptism on 19th October 2008
After that he suffered at his night shift duty cuz lack of zzZ.

The Pain

God. Thank you for being my God. Thank you for always be there when I turn to you. Thank you for being always so strong to back me up when I am weak and in need of you. Whenever in your presence, it is holy, peaceful, joyful, powerful, victorious and fearful. But Lord.. It's painful.. especially tonight and I don't know why. Lord I learn to trust in You, your plan and your timing for my brother. But still I'm so sorry that brother is still living his life apart from you, breaking your heart with his sins and remain unbelieved. I teared in my apology my Lord, on behalf of this brother. Tonight, I am still shedding and this will continue for the reason that brother still remain unsaved. I pray for the day brother to be with me and Richard as a family of Yours. How much I wish brother to feel the love we have for him especially Yours. Lord... Please save him and don't let him die, please don't let us lost him, as I selfishly plead to you to enable brother in Christ and give him a room in your kingdom, I know the truth is that you are more hurt than anyone else. Everytime I pray, I also teared. It never stop. Brother is very dearly to me, just as Richard. As I remember your love, grace and teachings, I kept myself holy and the desire to make myself more holy, only hoping for your blessings. The more the devil hit me, the more I seek for you, my Lord. You promised the day will come when the devil will be crushed under our feet. By then, allow me to contribute with a "small kick" but with all my strength! I know you will never let me go, for this reason I will never let go of you too. I believe in you God. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Words of Edison

Woah been quite some time since I last blogged! Today I wanna share two things. 1) Thanks to my Sir 2) Sharing of Words of Edison. First of all, I want to thank God for my CMO Dr Tan, who plays a big role in encouraging me to do evangelism. It's a blessing to get to know Dr Tan even though he is about to retire in a month's time, I thank God that I get to know him. He is super kind! I pray that for the last few weeks with Dr Tan would be fruitful in fellowship.

I just going to type out what I have wrote in office during my free-time. It's some journal/message to the Lord Jesus Christ. Here it goes in chronological order, but date will be omitted.. becuz it's forgotten =X

Dear Jesus,

I am sorry Lord. It is for my sin, you died on the cross. Yet even today, sin still bring you away from me. You still love me everytime I repent. You always forgive me and be with me. I know that I am not alone when you are my living God. You put your hand on my shoulder, said to me and show me the way to love. You promised to be there for me everytime. As I walk on this earth, I keep your promises to my heart and remind myself about it all the time. Hoping to see you, I kept dearly of your commandments. Everytime I work, I cry for you, for you are my strength to accomplishments. You have set your plans ahead of me. I shall walk in no fear but giving my trust and faith to you. What is it that I can do for you Jesus? For you are the almighty God who needs no fillings from your creation. All I can give is as little as my life. Lord Jesus I cry for you to take my life. I surrender my life, deny myself, to work for your glory in heaven. O'Yes whenever I llook up into the sky, I see your fading image in my heart and you would look down at me and comfort me in your love. I am forever secured in your hand Jesus.

Love,
Ebenezer
Child of God

Dear Father,

My lovely father... Thank You for taking your child to Heaven. I am loved because the Father has loved me. As I love the Father, Father's love is with me. What is more joyful than being loved by Father? The urge in me drive me to Him, lying on Him in sober. Nothing could be better than this! I promise to be as obedient but the devil is always closer and working around the corner. I cry to Father knowing that the day will come when the devil will be crushed under my feet. Woe to him who separate Father and me, bringing deceptions, distractions and disillusion to me. One day when the child is called upon to Heaven, the deal will finally lost hold of the child. And there will only be love, joy, peace and eternity.

I ask of Father how should I overcome the hardship on this temple. I pray for peace to come on the day I have to leave this body, by force or by nature.

I wish I could do more and in partnership more with my Father. Fellowshipping with Father. He is more than a Father. He is the Saviour, Redeemer, Lord, King, Brother, Friend and Shepherd. He lives in every love. Praise to my Glorious Father in Heaven, who will bless us in more than 6,000 spiritual blessings and grace, peace and love. Amen!

Child,
Edison
Ebenezer

Thank You Lord, you have put me in a safe land. Lord you are wonderful. I Love You! Remember back sometime ago I still do not know how to love you because I have not really know you. Now that you are a big portion of my life, I have already know you. And have know your love. Lord, build me and empower me in faith. Let our love grow stronger and for this reason, the faith will grow too. Till the day when sheep needs to give up his body to meet His shepherd in heaven, faith will bring sheep through. The faith, great faith that come from Lord's undying love. What joy to be in you, O'Lord.

Lord, empower us, my CG and be with us always. We pray for your blessing O'Lord. Come and bless our CG. Let us tell others how great our Lord is. The only One who die for unconditional love. Our redeemer, our Saviour, our King. You are a great King because you laid your life for the nation, which could be part of your Kingdom. O'Lord come may your spirit dwell among us and make us love in Christ. For your love is perfect... so pure. Let me dwell into yours all. Your purity, your love, your faithfulness and your righteousness.

Sheep,
Edison
Ebenezer