Dedication to my Shepherd

I thank God for this brother and shepherd. His love shows me Jesus' love. I am so affirmed that Jesus lives in us. He is the inspiration to bring my heart to God. Learning his life is a great testimony of our living God, who loves us, changes us and never short-change us for what we gave to Him. Bro knows magic, not the magic tricks he entertains us with, but by the words spoken out of love. "I am your spiritual brother." he said to me. What comfort in Jesus! My life with Jesus begins through him in Christ and the magical and powerful word God put in him.

But I don't think he will see this post any sooner? He is too busy to come online I think? I just wanna say that a thousand thanks can't express my appreciation for him. He is God's messenger to me, and a microwave oven for my heart. A vacuum for my thoughts. A vase for my experience with God. A vase because it is used to store and sustain flowers(my spiritual life). I love you shepherd! But sorry I gotta make you lose face abit. Please scroll down...

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This is him.
At my water baptism on 19th October 2008
After that he suffered at his night shift duty cuz lack of zzZ.

The Pain

God. Thank you for being my God. Thank you for always be there when I turn to you. Thank you for being always so strong to back me up when I am weak and in need of you. Whenever in your presence, it is holy, peaceful, joyful, powerful, victorious and fearful. But Lord.. It's painful.. especially tonight and I don't know why. Lord I learn to trust in You, your plan and your timing for my brother. But still I'm so sorry that brother is still living his life apart from you, breaking your heart with his sins and remain unbelieved. I teared in my apology my Lord, on behalf of this brother. Tonight, I am still shedding and this will continue for the reason that brother still remain unsaved. I pray for the day brother to be with me and Richard as a family of Yours. How much I wish brother to feel the love we have for him especially Yours. Lord... Please save him and don't let him die, please don't let us lost him, as I selfishly plead to you to enable brother in Christ and give him a room in your kingdom, I know the truth is that you are more hurt than anyone else. Everytime I pray, I also teared. It never stop. Brother is very dearly to me, just as Richard. As I remember your love, grace and teachings, I kept myself holy and the desire to make myself more holy, only hoping for your blessings. The more the devil hit me, the more I seek for you, my Lord. You promised the day will come when the devil will be crushed under our feet. By then, allow me to contribute with a "small kick" but with all my strength! I know you will never let me go, for this reason I will never let go of you too. I believe in you God. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Words of Edison

Woah been quite some time since I last blogged! Today I wanna share two things. 1) Thanks to my Sir 2) Sharing of Words of Edison. First of all, I want to thank God for my CMO Dr Tan, who plays a big role in encouraging me to do evangelism. It's a blessing to get to know Dr Tan even though he is about to retire in a month's time, I thank God that I get to know him. He is super kind! I pray that for the last few weeks with Dr Tan would be fruitful in fellowship.

I just going to type out what I have wrote in office during my free-time. It's some journal/message to the Lord Jesus Christ. Here it goes in chronological order, but date will be omitted.. becuz it's forgotten =X

Dear Jesus,

I am sorry Lord. It is for my sin, you died on the cross. Yet even today, sin still bring you away from me. You still love me everytime I repent. You always forgive me and be with me. I know that I am not alone when you are my living God. You put your hand on my shoulder, said to me and show me the way to love. You promised to be there for me everytime. As I walk on this earth, I keep your promises to my heart and remind myself about it all the time. Hoping to see you, I kept dearly of your commandments. Everytime I work, I cry for you, for you are my strength to accomplishments. You have set your plans ahead of me. I shall walk in no fear but giving my trust and faith to you. What is it that I can do for you Jesus? For you are the almighty God who needs no fillings from your creation. All I can give is as little as my life. Lord Jesus I cry for you to take my life. I surrender my life, deny myself, to work for your glory in heaven. O'Yes whenever I llook up into the sky, I see your fading image in my heart and you would look down at me and comfort me in your love. I am forever secured in your hand Jesus.

Love,
Ebenezer
Child of God

Dear Father,

My lovely father... Thank You for taking your child to Heaven. I am loved because the Father has loved me. As I love the Father, Father's love is with me. What is more joyful than being loved by Father? The urge in me drive me to Him, lying on Him in sober. Nothing could be better than this! I promise to be as obedient but the devil is always closer and working around the corner. I cry to Father knowing that the day will come when the devil will be crushed under my feet. Woe to him who separate Father and me, bringing deceptions, distractions and disillusion to me. One day when the child is called upon to Heaven, the deal will finally lost hold of the child. And there will only be love, joy, peace and eternity.

I ask of Father how should I overcome the hardship on this temple. I pray for peace to come on the day I have to leave this body, by force or by nature.

I wish I could do more and in partnership more with my Father. Fellowshipping with Father. He is more than a Father. He is the Saviour, Redeemer, Lord, King, Brother, Friend and Shepherd. He lives in every love. Praise to my Glorious Father in Heaven, who will bless us in more than 6,000 spiritual blessings and grace, peace and love. Amen!

Child,
Edison
Ebenezer

Thank You Lord, you have put me in a safe land. Lord you are wonderful. I Love You! Remember back sometime ago I still do not know how to love you because I have not really know you. Now that you are a big portion of my life, I have already know you. And have know your love. Lord, build me and empower me in faith. Let our love grow stronger and for this reason, the faith will grow too. Till the day when sheep needs to give up his body to meet His shepherd in heaven, faith will bring sheep through. The faith, great faith that come from Lord's undying love. What joy to be in you, O'Lord.

Lord, empower us, my CG and be with us always. We pray for your blessing O'Lord. Come and bless our CG. Let us tell others how great our Lord is. The only One who die for unconditional love. Our redeemer, our Saviour, our King. You are a great King because you laid your life for the nation, which could be part of your Kingdom. O'Lord come may your spirit dwell among us and make us love in Christ. For your love is perfect... so pure. Let me dwell into yours all. Your purity, your love, your faithfulness and your righteousness.

Sheep,
Edison
Ebenezer

Book of Exodus

Hey people! I found very interesting! In the bible, book of Exodus, Moses are being called by God to bring the Israelites (slave of egypt) out of egypt because God has heard their cries. Moses did many miraculous sign in order to bring Israelites out of Egypt. There is a part where Moses successfully bring them out of Egypt, the King of Egypt Pharaoh's heart was hardened and want to capture them back because there is no one to do the slavery service if Israelites were to leave Egypt. Moses then did a miracle through God's strength and that is to divide the water of red sea and make themselves cross the ocean on dry land when walls of water were at the left and right. When the Israelites passes, God commanded Moses to close up the water and drown every single army with their men, chariots and horses. Guess what? Scientist found the Ancient Chariots and bones of animals and men underneath the Red Sea! Jesus is real! Amen!

Please visit: http://www.discoverynews.us/red_sea.htm

I shall let God decides the believe in your heart. =)

Gloria in Heaven~

Life in Jesus Christ

Hello! Today is the day for service!! Wow I love Jesus! But I am still learning how to put Jesus in every area of my life, and to have faith and trust in Him for every work I wanna accomplish. I also wanna know His heart and have spiritual sight too! Prays for it~ Well this week I have encounter an incident that both God and Satan came together one after another and I felt sad and angry about it. Well.. if you wanna hear about it, continue reading!

There is a colleague in office who have learned about Jesus and he said he believe Jesus is alive! Amen to that! So, the next step is just a step of faith! But he seems to have his unspeakable reason for not taking the step. Sergeant and me were trying to let him understand the importance of taking a step of faith towards Jesus so he may experience Jesus in his life! We were all ready for the sinner's prayer! Suddenly the holy moment came, where all office personnels were lost at the scene and only left three of us. As I pray, I felt the holiness, peace and joy like how I felt during worship in service! I knew God was there! This "Holy Moment" lasted for 10 minutes and soon after, satan came striking us every direction with distractions, one after another.

As I pray again, I learned that God will give every single soul on earth a chance to come to know him. He will plan the special moment which one would come and say "Jesus, I want you to be my Lord and Saviour!" for everyone. I was very sad because I know God is sad when he has planned this moment yet he is being rejected again. I was very angry because of satan!! I have witness God's works and satan's works! It's so scary!

Anyway, ending this, knowing God is not all about logics and reasons, you need to have Faith. Otherwise, why do you have a brain and a heart!? Jesus said to His disciple in the bible, "Now you have seen me and have believed. Blessed are those who have not see me and have believed." And God do not want to appear to our sight of eye because He wants us to have faith! If today, a man came to you and say He is Jesus. I bet you definitely will think he's crazy! Why? People say they want to see to believe, but yet when they see they still don't believe. When the power of healing is happening today, people still don't believe. But in Faith, we believed in God. If one day Jesus is back, for those who have faith will surely know Him. Let's pray~

Dear Jesus, thank you for your graceful blessings and love for the people! I pray to you Lord, you will make room in the heart of men so that they could consume your presence in their life. Everything seems much necessary but Jesus you are the one the people needs. In you, we are blessed. In you, we are saved. In you, we love. In you, we have life. In you, we have everything in life. Lord, may you speak to the people in this time of prayer and they will understand in their heart. Lord, we surrender ourselves to you and so that in you, we have the true life. Lord at this time, as I repeat the names of my beloved brothers in my heart, bless them with the Truth O Lord. In the authority and power of Jesus' name, we pray. Amen!

God's Presence!

Wow! Today I really want to thank Lord for lifting up my spirit! I felt energetic today! I'm ready to be social! Lolx~ Anyway, I am praying that God will transform me in a way that I can be more sociable and tactful with people. So it will be easier to share Christ with people! I shall do my best and if there is any flaws or wrong-doings, please come and tell me ok! Thanks brothers & sisters!!

Alright today I wanna blog about several things I have learned during my unit meeting, lesson conducted by Jeremiah and some stuffs during sermon too! Today is quite a fruitful day to me as I see God has lift me up a step higher! Meaning, He provides me with more knowledge and scope to accomplish as a Christian! Thank Lord! So, what is Truth? By right the Truth is in Jesus Christ and we can only realize the Truth by being Christ-like. But nowadays, people define Truth as what majority could accept and feeds their desires. People are denying the fact and withdrawn. The real Truth in Christ is hard to achieve, but once you have realize it, it gonna be a thousand and million times valuable and joyful than the fake truth. It's hard to achieve because we are sinful by nature! To be pure and Christ-like, we must fight against satan's temptation, which most of us would fall into his trap! Therefore, it's so hard to learn the Truth in Christ! Every sin comes from thoughts, and every thoughts come from sight. In bible, book of Luke 11:34 says "Your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness." Let's pray that our Holy Spirit will intercept all the sinful thoughts in our head and replace them with repentance and prayers to God. C'mon everyone, let us only see the real Truth and acknowledge only the real Truth. Stop satisfying ourselves and give excuses so as to stay in comfort zone. Be courageous! Get out there!

The second thing I learned is about Faith. There are two types of faith. The first type is when we say the sinner's prayer and receive Jesus as our Lord and Saviour. The second faith, which is evolved through the first, is the Faith of Salvation. It comes when we gain biblical knowledge, obedience to God and serve God using the authority given to us. The Faith of Salvation is what we need to be strengthened and stand firm in Christ! One day when someone point a gun at our throat, will u deny Christ? Imagine it realistically and answer yourself honestly. If you will deny Jesus, all your christian journey will be in vain. Therefore, I believe that whenever we wanna do something, we must commit and give in the best!

The most important learning for me today other than learning how to evangelize, is using the authority given by God. As a christian, we have the authority given by our Lord to pray for others, cast away demons, prophesies and ... but how strong are we in the authority? Pastor Jasmine gave a very straight and direct example. No matter in working life or army, we always need to be commanded before we can command others. In army, we must be tekan before we got the power to tekan others. As a christian, we need to live under the authority of Christ in order to receive authority from Him. And gaining authority means more responsibility in serving God and loving people, sacrifice the less Godly commitments to serve God too. For new believers or those who are going to convert, please do not worry of what I have said in the previous sentence. One day when you experience the Grace and Love from Jesus, you will willingly sacrifice your time to serve God. And you will understand your whole life you want to surrender them and only live for God.

Well, for non-believers again, I used to think that it's coward and weak to depends on God for everything and believed in my own strength. I used to think that submitting ourselves to God sounds very devilish. But I tell you this, you think this way because you have lack of understandings. For those who knew me well, I did not have any set backs in life to cause me to rely on Jesus. I go to Jesus by the means of seeking the real Truth and Wisdom. I am not emotionally weakened then I choose Christ. It's He convinced me with the content of Bible. No offense, but there is always a chance for everyone to know about Christ, it's up to us whether we wanna spend the time learning it or arguing it. =) If wanna argue, make sure we have the full understanding of the subject we going to argue too! So we could win ourselves knowledge and wisdom, not for pride.

Long long ago....

Today while waiting for bus to go home, suddenly I had a recollection in deep memories, it's about the very first time I saw the name "Jesus". When I was very young, Jesus already threw an attachment to me. I remembered I used to by looking at the name "Jesus", the first impression was that He is someone who can be fully trusted. I do not know this person, but I know He is someone very kind. Deep in me, I grew a strong yet unsurfaced affection to this name "Jesus". I used to be a good for nothing child, who are neither good in studies nor sports. God bless me in profession in Info-Communication during the course in ITE. Soon, I am good in programming during NYP. Those are the first time I see my worth.

Next, I joined martial art and God helped me excel. Even when managing with political people, He has blessed me with certain intelligence that would suddenly developed in me so that I could survive. Why do I say it's God who gave me? Because politics and strategic subjects were not my cup of tea. I am careless, blur, insensitive and unobservant by nature. But when necessarily, I could react strategically. That was very unlike myself to begin with.

I am sure that God has been planning my conversion long long ago, beginning at the moment I felt the affection in His name. I'm thankful He has planned my journey so well that I do not lost myself and has come to know very sincere and powerful leaders in Hope Church. God has trained me well in becoming who I am today. =)

Lord Jesus, thank you in sacrificing yourself to cleanse our sin with your blood! Yet it's so heart wrenching that these days we still sin due to our sinful nature, and yet you are still loving to forgive the repentance souls. I pray your blessings for your children so that we will be strong to overcome the devil! The strong desire in bringing glory to your name often stomped and demoralized by the devil. Lord, let the Holy Spirit intercept our thoughts for thoughts become words, for words become actions, for actions become habits, for habits become character, for character become destiny. I pray that we will all have a destiny in your glory and kingdom. Lord blesses us and help us in earning the true spiritual value and not the earthly value so we may enter your kingdom! In Jesus' name we pray, Amen!