Ebenezer & Jesus

Love's broken-ness

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 18:58:00 +0000

Dear Jesus my Lord, show me the kind of faith that you will lay your power on me. Lord, teach me the kind of humble-ness that you will always call out for me to go for your almighty name.

Whenever you are rejected, I am heart broken. Because I know Lord, you bear the most pain. Lord, I still do not know your heart well. Show me your heart Jesus. So I can feel every that you felt, then I am more empowered to be your vessel. In Jesus' name, heal the blinds so that they can see. Amen.

God's Touch

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 14:56:00 +0000

Recently I am living in much joy. I find myself burst into laughter often. I am easily contented, and happy about simple things. Thank God for Eilton that he treated me Royale Black flavour ice cream cone yesterday at ECP. That really put me into child-like mood. But I am the one requested for his treat. =P Eilton is kind enough to grant my wish. Wahaha~~

I prayed so much that God would change me to become somebody who are able to bind people together. I started by trying to be humourous. YES!! TRYING!! Nobody laugh at my joke! So discouraged. Instead they laugh at my stupidity.. but well i'm contented with that too. Today during the prayer meet in office, my prayer request is that God help me to be more humourous like Jun Hao or loud like Eilton. So the prayer goes like this.. "Lord you bless Edison in his joke and upgrade his joke."

In the midst of joy, at times I also teared. Because I know God is pampering me and cheering me. For this I felt touched by God. My eyes often caught some "secret act" of people which makes me laugh. I saw Jeremiah acting like a kid when his sandal stepped by Eilton. I saw Eilton breaking the flower which suppose to be a gift for the Water Baptized sister. I saw people playing "Ji Gu Ba" and finger cramp. I saw yoyo break into half while the sister doing stunts with it. Many more...

I also kept having flash-back about how I am in the past. I rejected Jesus with mockery, unbelieved, criticized, I even cursed that I will kill the demons and god. But yes He did died but not killed by this weakling. God love me so much that He choose to die on the cross because I am a sinner. He teared on the cross because there are people like me who don't understand the wrath of God and the eternal pain in hell. Jesus knows what troubles and torments are coming ahead of me if I don't repent so He prayed for you and me. While I indulge myself with pride and ego for 20++ years, Jesus never give up calling me even I choose to turn my back at him. I know how much this friend has done for me. Now I know I'm delivered into his arm. Nothing going to come between Jesus and me. Not sin, not self-interests, not self-comfort, not troubles, not persecutions, not anything in the world. Not even "myself". Lord, No words can describe how I feel towards you. You need to witness my heart and examine it for yourself.

Joyful Day

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 15:37:00 +0000

Thank you Jesus for blessing such a wonderful and joyful CG day. The preparation was wonderful. The songs and prayers were wonderful. The noise at my house was wonderful. The guitar is wonderful. The movie was wonderful. The short boxing session with Ezekiel was wonderful. The movie was wonderful. The basket ball game was wonderful. The cheers were wonderful. The drinks were wonderful. The scenery at the park was wonderful. The people are wonderful. It is all wonderful because most of all

JESUS YOU ARE WONDERFUL!!!

Jesus Jesus... Thank you for the drink treat during dinner. Eilton picked up 10 dollars note on the floor and we know it is you who blessed us. Every little things in my life, I want you to get involve with me Jesus. Through ups and downs I want you to walk with me Jesus. In the times of intimacy or even argument, I want it to be with you. Yes Jesus sometimes I do argue with you. But never once I win you because you are God the almighty. You are even good at arguing with love. God I am forgetful and ungrateful because I am a sinner, please please please make me wake up whenever I sleep. Sorry for the inconvenience caused.

Today I learned the different ways of QT from my brothers and leaders. I realized that I am so inflexible! But yes! I am going to customize my own QT with you, in a more creative manner! But of course I will not forget the basic - prayer, bible reading, thanksgiving, praise and worship. God I have three things to ask from you. In Jesus' name, heal my left ankle please? In Jesus' name, give me music talent please? I wanna learn guitar so that I can play for you. Lastly, cannot share in blog. I tell you later Jesus.

Lastly, Thank God for Jesus for TNSA-4. I will never forget this caregroup in my life. Never will I. I love you my beloved family. Love you more, Jesus. =3

Combine Service

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 15:42:00 +0000

Today Hope Singapore had a combined service. It is announced that Pastor Jeff would be our new Senior Pastor! Pastor Jeff is full of spirit everytime. I believe God will move the church through him and he will be greatly used by God. If you happen to read this page, I would like to tell you, today your teaching moved me. God has used you to move me, Pastor Jeff.

Today as I was taking note during sermon, there are several sentences I wrote.
-We must be the right container for God to fill the harvest.
-How can we feed others when we can't even feed ourselves? (Spiritual food)
-In time of challenges, it is God offers a great opportunity to trust in Him.
-Does God ever fails me? NO!

And I have made two decisions:
1) Go down deep in prayer to ask God what He wants me to do for the kingdom.
2) I want to use my one and only lifeon earth to do God's will. To join Jesus in his vision. To meet Him one day to see the smile on His face.

Four things to pray for tonight:
1) About my frustration towards people's sin
2) God lead me to live in account to God and self
3) Go deep into details of my daily life (Correction)
4) Listen to the voice of Lord

Lord I'm coming to meet you.

Lord, My Companion.

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 17:08:00 +0000

I'm ashamed when I look at how you would not even consider or possess a second thought but all determined to die on the cross for me. I have know how great is your love, but I can never estimate the depth. Your love is far from what I can perceive. The amount surpasses and overflows over the brim of my bottle. Lord, I have this bottle with its own capacity. You say if I am willing to let go, you will give me another of no capacity, which its brim the water cannot meet. Lord I am exchanging for that new bottle. Please give it to me. Holy spirit come into me and teach me how to love the unlovable. It is unbearable to know how filty I am for my Lord to touch. It surpasses the amount of love I can imagine or expect. Lord I will love the people with faith. Agape is what you are teaching me.

Your presence so strong that inflicts fear, along with inspiration and encouragement. For I fear displeasing you in my substandard faith and deed. Lord I cast all my worries, doubts, uncertainties and transformation to you. Each day, Holy Spirit prompts me the area of life I am to correct and seek your purification, I turned into prayer instantly. I asked for your holy spirit to fill me daily. I asked for your lead daily. I have my cross ready O'Lord. Teach me and give me the strength to pick it up and follow you. Lord I give you praise... you witness my faith and take every of my prayers seriously even if it may presented casual. You see into my heart O'Lord.

Father, give me a place which its aroma is pleasing to you, so that I can meet you there. Amen.

My Victorious God

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 13:01:00 +0000

Some people say you're just a prophet. Some people say you're wise. Some people say you're just a man. But I say you're God. You are my victorious God. Thank you Jesus for bringing victory into my life. I know I will always remain a victor as long as I live in you. Victory will not come easy but I will persevere to the very end. My shepherd taught me to live the Word of God and not just reading. To let the Word of God be a shield that the devil cannot penetrate. Lately I have acquired this shield. I thought it was never possible. I overcame temptations many times when I hold on tight to Jesus' name and pray before it becomes too much for me to handle. I learned to be more responsive towards the Holy Spirit and be patience to wait upon the Lord. I learned not to rush before God's timing. I learned to trust in the Lord even when the devil stood right before me. How long will I be able to maintain this spirit of victory? -- As long as my life remain surrendered to Christ.

Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear not evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely Goodness and Love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Street Evangelism on 20th March 2009

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 13:13:00 +0000

We're currently in Operations: Vanguard's Will!

Target: Break through 100 by March 2009!

Guys! Ephraim and I are going to do Street Evangelism on 20th March 2009 for this break through on March '09!! We desirably welcome you all to join us in this mission! Let's satisfy our faith to the Lord by doing His Will. The plans are ongoing as you are reading this. We need your support to make this act more powerful! Amen!

Just wanna share this thought with the readers. What inspired us to do this is because, personally, I believe on 1st April 2009, there will only be two reaction. 1. Disappointment that we never break through. or 2. Rejoice before the Lord for the break through. I believe that our faith will touch God and surely he will bless us. Ephraim and I really urge you to come and satisfy your faith in this event!

Exodus 16:13-18
That evening quail came and covered the camp, and in the morning there was a layer of dew around the camp. When the dew was gone, thin flakes like frost on the ground appeared on the desert floor. When the Israelites saw it, they said to each other, "What is it?" For they did not know what it was.

Moses said to tem, "It is the bread the LORD has given you to eat. This is what the LORD has commanded: 'Each one is to gather as much as he needs. Take an omer for each person you have in your tent.'"

The Israelites did as they were told; some gathered much, some little. And when they measured it by the omer, he who gathered much did not have too much, and the who gathered little did not have too little. Each one gathered as much as he needed.

The Lord know how much we need. He knows which is not too much, which is not too less. But Lord did not place the bread directly into the houses of Israelites but outside on the desert floor. To acquire the bread, the Israelites have to make effort to go out and fetch the bread home. On 20th March 09, we're going to fetch the lives outside home!

My Dedication of Love for Lord Jesus

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 02:26:00 +0000

While waiting for Eilton and Donald to meet up at yoshinoya, I felt God. So I wrote this:

Lord, who deserve my cries?
Every pain and prayers for you,
Who will care to feel?
There is no one like you.

Lord, who shall I give my devotion?
You guide me to your arm, your patience is limitless.
Who care to wait 22 years for me?
There is no one like you.

Lord, who shall I follow?
You are the Way, the Truth and the Life.
Who will guide me in rightousness?
There is no one like you.

Lord, who shall I serve?
A King live like a slave, descent from Heaven to save the world.
Who are to feed these filty rats?
There is no one like you.

Lord, who shall I give my life?
You offered up yours when death should be mine.
Who care to sacrifice everything for me?
There is no one like you.

Lord, who shall I love?
The love of the world can never add up to yours.
Nobody will ever love me like you do.
There will be no one like you.

Well it is not any artist's work. It's a piece of my heart. I love Jesus.. because He love me first.

Voice Of Truth

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 07:50:00 +0000

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy, you'll never win!'
"You'll never win"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again "boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

How do you look at imperfection?

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 02:59:00 +0000

People! =) Well lately often *overheard* conversations of condemnation. A simple and familiar phase to share "Human is never perfect". When I ponder at this sentence, it reminds me of Man and God relationship. It is because of flaws(sin) in man that we need God. And everyone need Jesus, to fill up the void in the heart. I also learned from Jeremiah's teaching that, the Kingdom of God is meant for everyone. It is for this unlovable boy, also that annoying girl, also for that irresponsible man and also for that short-tempered lady. Everyone.

It is natural that at times we make unjust judgment. But don't forget we're too a sinner, we are no different from the unlovable ones. Except, we are more fortunate to have come to know Jesus, who opens our hearts and blesses abundantly. We're led by Jesus who is the light of the world, therefore we may be seemed "better". One thing I learned long ago at Book of Ephesian Study, it is that we don't hate the sinner, but the sin. The sin, which from the deception of Satan. Sin fall into mankind due to deception of Satan, amen? All man on earth is a creation of God and thus belongs to God. For our glorious King, let's deliver and bring the lost souls home from Satan's hand.

The greatest love is Jesus, who love even His prosecutors. Amen!

God's dwelling

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 15:50:00 +0000

Today i spent time sitting at Suntec Fountain of Wealth with Jian Feng after shepherding. looking at the beautiful fountain plays make me so fond of God, whose mighty hands that place such soothing and gentle scene before me, and earnest to worship Him in gratitude of appreciation. We then started praying for Jian Feng's uncle, my most loved brother Richard Samuel and Zane. I set my heart and dwell in God's presence in prayers. I felt that my life is not my own, but imprisonment in Christ yet remain unstruggled with utmost joy of love and peace. More than words in description. As though the world of sin I'm sitting on has perished and my earthly five senses have vanished. The state of not-likely to be in thoughts, and not-likely to be in feelings. Could it be in spirit? The unexplanable state of dwelling in God experience. I am speechless. I cannot describe further.

2 Cor 12:9 (NRSV) but he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness." So, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

Caregroup Day!

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 12:36:00 +0000

Today is a fruitful day, full of praises to God and dwelling. Today we have 8 believers coming together to worship God and dwell in the presence of God! The topic of CG today is "Dwelling of God". It is indeed! It started off with bible verses crossword puzzle! I am the game master and I am of much satisfactory because Donald was challenged!!! Wahaha!! I'm glad at least this game benefits everybody including my leader ^_^! The interactive process took place for about 20 mins. Kinda longer than expected. Praise & Worship and prayers are followed then, as we all dwell into God's presence in the anointed song "My Heart Your Home". Today finally I understand why is it "My Heart God's Home". It is to set our heart so that God comes in.

Today we shared very powerful and strong testimonies, testifying the glorious name of God! It is witnessed that many brothers and sisters in our caregroup already loved God so much and already marching towards God's vision. Thank God for moving us like the wave in the big ocean!! Amen! Follow by the end of Care Group!

But the sharing session about the Glory of God has not ended yet! We headed to subway at AMK Hub for lunch and to my surprise, the children of God continue to share about how great is our God in our lives. We kept sharing with enthusiasm until sister got to leave to meet Lynn. I tell you.. it's WOW!! We really dwell into God's presence! Today my heart is renewed once again!!

This is my personal time with God. God is humorous. You know during on my way home from AMK Hub, I promised to spend more time with God today. As I walk home, I am tempted again. I saw some thai boxing boys training at a nearby "badminton court". It tempts me to go and look. But God is faithful, He brought me home straight, leading me away from temptation. >.<>, buy the pen and pencil, buy 3 notebooks and a file and store all of them inside. Bring this file wherever you go so that you can write anytime." and I went. I got the pen, pencil, 3 notebooks and a file exactly like the picture I have in my mind during the prayer. The hair on my face goosebumps!! I name the 3 books, "Book Of Blessings" & "Book Of Repentance" & "Book Of Visions". =D I'm happy that I grew closer with God tonight. This is quite a long post huh? Lolx!! I will again randomly close this blog. God is faithful! Amen!!

Spiritual Growth

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Fri, 16 Jan 2009 18:43:00 +0000

Wow today God really bless and touch my heart. 16th Jan 2009, I took my off day and I rest at home with God. I missed the meeting with Bao Ren so therefore plenty of time spent with God. Early in the morning I woke up and felt my heart closed. I am dead worried. I sat before this screen and watch several online sermons by Paul Washer.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuabITeO4l8

This sermon really helps me in understanding the faith of salvation. I cried 4 times during this 1 hour sermon. It really saddened me when I realize how ungrateful men are. Jesus died on the cross bearing our sins and His blood cleanses us, yet we treat this precious blood like pig's blood. Many christians certainly neglected the basic foundation of faith. We should not take it lightly when our Lord die on the cross for us, the pain and torment He alone went through for us. So that we may be saved and be blameless before the Heavenly Father. He also speak about the meaning of entering the Narrow Gate in Matthew 7. Take some time to watch this sermon yeah? =) It is helpful.

I learned that I am a sinner and God love me as sinner. He knows I am weak. I should not let guilt of repeated repentence hinder me from reaching to God. Because to be saved is not to say the sinner's prayer once and repent once but to continue repenting of ourselves. Because we will definitely sin tomorrow. As long as we are conscious, temptations are around us. Sin may or may not be known to us. Since we are weak, we ought to seek God's power and blessings of strength to fight against temptation in our lives. Temptations will cloud our sight to the Truth. Therefore we need God to renew us and put us back on the right track when we drift away. Never be ashame to seek God's strengthening when we sin against God. God knows we are going to sin and that is why the more we must seek his strength as a weak man. But it doesn't mean we don't make effort to avoid and resist to sin. Beware and be known of God's wrath! God love the good therefore He hate the evil.

The prayer meet followed at 7pm ++ is awesome! Pastors were excellent! Anointed by God! I feel more connected with God through this prayer meet. I am even more convinced that I am strengthened because Jesus love me. This sentence spoken by one of the pastors kept repeating itself in my mind. It says: "Let's not try to be positive by ourselves but fix our eyes on Jesus." I know how tiring it is to keep myself up to God's standard in my spiritual life by my own effort. But I learned the true way of being godly and holy is to love God. Love God and everything I do shall be motivated by His love. I enjoyed the dancing, jumping and hands raising to God as though God is going to pull me up to heaven anytime. =D

Thank God for the day! It was great. I cannot imagine my day without God and how dull and moody I will be. When God is alive in me, I am never empty, I am never hollow. I am filled with his Spirit and bearing the fruits of spirit. Love, joy and peace.

Barriers

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 14:14:00 +0000

God is with us not by our feeling, but by His promises and Words.
It is not God who has left us, but our sin which harden our heart and closed to God.
How easy or how difficult it is to have the true heart of repentance?
How humble are we to be quick in repentance?
The heaven rejoice more when a sinner repent than a righteous who do not need to repent.
God love us as who we are, a sinner, so do not let guilt mask us from seeking God.
We can never hide ourselves from God. We are to account to Him at the end of the day. So why bother trying?
Let's be real to God. Speak in honesty and live in Truth.

It's been a long time

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 12:59:00 +0000

Woah~ It's been a long time since I blogged. Did you think that I might have already grown tired of Jesus? I tell you the truth... NO!!!! NO!! NO! NO!!! It's been so exciting all these while! There are times when I'm down, and Jesus really is here to encourage me and lift up my spirit! He never leave me no matter how self-centered I have become emotionally. God is with me...

Today we had CG picnic together! Though it didn't go after a good planning, it is still enjoyable because God is among us! Amen! Thank God for such a blessed day! And today God wanna push me to be self-less through Donald and more. I am commanded to approach a group of strangers, with guys and ladies, to bless them with the food prepared extra due to members who were busy. Seriously, looking at the amount of ladies in that group, I shrunk. I panicked. What a joke huh!? Jian Feng were to be my companion in this "mission". Courage from God is with me, so I did approach but unfortunately, were rejected. At this time, instead of returning to my bros and sis, God encouraged me to carry on approaching others. God is faithful, and the next two groups we approach accepted our offer. Praise God!!

We're going back to vivo for dinner already. And then, I realized my phone was missing and it was with Eilton, who left early for appointment. So instead of dinning with caregroup, I dined with Donald at toa payoh KFC after getting my phone from Eilton. It is very enjoyable with Donald talking about how great our God is and His blessings for our caregroup! Fellowship is of such great joy!

I took bus 88 home from Toa Payoh and during the journey......... guess what? My slipper broke!! I imagine how embarrass it would be if I were to walk home from the bus stop bare-footed. I prayed. Again there is a challenge to alight at amk station and walk back home bare footed. Do u think it's stupid and crazy? I think it is! But I am also a crazy person! God knows me and how to encourage and inspire me! So I alighted at amk station and walk back. At the same time, when God put me into test, He is with me. I am on phone with my Great Shepherd, Richard, and God impressed upon my heart to account to him whatever I have missed. So I took up the courage God gave me and I did. After which, I felt restored and strengthened in Christ. My faith raised. My relationship with God improved. The peace in my heart conquered me. God satisfys me. Thank God for today! It is a fruitful day and full of tests! But with God, I am most encouraged! Amen!

God, if it is your will, let Richard be my account manager forever. I pray in Jesus' name and in obedience. Amen! Thank God for Richard!

Dedication to my Shepherd

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 14:11:00 +0000

I thank God for this brother and shepherd. His love shows me Jesus' love. I am so affirmed that Jesus lives in us. He is the inspiration to bring my heart to God. Learning his life is a great testimony of our living God, who loves us, changes us and never short-change us for what we gave to Him. Bro knows magic, not the magic tricks he entertains us with, but by the words spoken out of love. "I am your spiritual brother." he said to me. What comfort in Jesus! My life with Jesus begins through him in Christ and the magical and powerful word God put in him.

But I don't think he will see this post any sooner? He is too busy to come online I think? I just wanna say that a thousand thanks can't express my appreciation for him. He is God's messenger to me, and a microwave oven for my heart. A vacuum for my thoughts. A vase for my experience with God. A vase because it is used to store and sustain flowers(my spiritual life). I love you shepherd! But sorry I gotta make you lose face abit. Please scroll down...

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At my water baptism on 19th October 2008
After that he suffered at his night shift duty cuz lack of zzZ.

The Pain

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 15:30:00 +0000

God. Thank you for being my God. Thank you for always be there when I turn to you. Thank you for being always so strong to back me up when I am weak and in need of you. Whenever in your presence, it is holy, peaceful, joyful, powerful, victorious and fearful. But Lord.. It's painful.. especially tonight and I don't know why. Lord I learn to trust in You, your plan and your timing for my brother. But still I'm so sorry that brother is still living his life apart from you, breaking your heart with his sins and remain unbelieved. I teared in my apology my Lord, on behalf of this brother. Tonight, I am still shedding and this will continue for the reason that brother still remain unsaved. I pray for the day brother to be with me and Richard as a family of Yours. How much I wish brother to feel the love we have for him especially Yours. Lord... Please save him and don't let him die, please don't let us lost him, as I selfishly plead to you to enable brother in Christ and give him a room in your kingdom, I know the truth is that you are more hurt than anyone else. Everytime I pray, I also teared. It never stop. Brother is very dearly to me, just as Richard. As I remember your love, grace and teachings, I kept myself holy and the desire to make myself more holy, only hoping for your blessings. The more the devil hit me, the more I seek for you, my Lord. You promised the day will come when the devil will be crushed under our feet. By then, allow me to contribute with a "small kick" but with all my strength! I know you will never let me go, for this reason I will never let go of you too. I believe in you God. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Words of Edison

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Fri, 12 Dec 2008 17:42:00 +0000

Woah been quite some time since I last blogged! Today I wanna share two things. 1) Thanks to my Sir 2) Sharing of Words of Edison. First of all, I want to thank God for my CMO Dr Tan, who plays a big role in encouraging me to do evangelism. It's a blessing to get to know Dr Tan even though he is about to retire in a month's time, I thank God that I get to know him. He is super kind! I pray that for the last few weeks with Dr Tan would be fruitful in fellowship.

I just going to type out what I have wrote in office during my free-time. It's some journal/message to the Lord Jesus Christ. Here it goes in chronological order, but date will be omitted.. becuz it's forgotten =X

Dear Jesus,

I am sorry Lord. It is for my sin, you died on the cross. Yet even today, sin still bring you away from me. You still love me everytime I repent. You always forgive me and be with me. I know that I am not alone when you are my living God. You put your hand on my shoulder, said to me and show me the way to love. You promised to be there for me everytime. As I walk on this earth, I keep your promises to my heart and remind myself about it all the time. Hoping to see you, I kept dearly of your commandments. Everytime I work, I cry for you, for you are my strength to accomplishments. You have set your plans ahead of me. I shall walk in no fear but giving my trust and faith to you. What is it that I can do for you Jesus? For you are the almighty God who needs no fillings from your creation. All I can give is as little as my life. Lord Jesus I cry for you to take my life. I surrender my life, deny myself, to work for your glory in heaven. O'Yes whenever I llook up into the sky, I see your fading image in my heart and you would look down at me and comfort me in your love. I am forever secured in your hand Jesus.

Love,
Ebenezer
Child of God

Dear Father,

My lovely father... Thank You for taking your child to Heaven. I am loved because the Father has loved me. As I love the Father, Father's love is with me. What is more joyful than being loved by Father? The urge in me drive me to Him, lying on Him in sober. Nothing could be better than this! I promise to be as obedient but the devil is always closer and working around the corner. I cry to Father knowing that the day will come when the devil will be crushed under my feet. Woe to him who separate Father and me, bringing deceptions, distractions and disillusion to me. One day when the child is called upon to Heaven, the deal will finally lost hold of the child. And there will only be love, joy, peace and eternity.

I ask of Father how should I overcome the hardship on this temple. I pray for peace to come on the day I have to leave this body, by force or by nature.

I wish I could do more and in partnership more with my Father. Fellowshipping with Father. He is more than a Father. He is the Saviour, Redeemer, Lord, King, Brother, Friend and Shepherd. He lives in every love. Praise to my Glorious Father in Heaven, who will bless us in more than 6,000 spiritual blessings and grace, peace and love. Amen!

Child,
Edison
Ebenezer

Thank You Lord, you have put me in a safe land. Lord you are wonderful. I Love You! Remember back sometime ago I still do not know how to love you because I have not really know you. Now that you are a big portion of my life, I have already know you. And have know your love. Lord, build me and empower me in faith. Let our love grow stronger and for this reason, the faith will grow too. Till the day when sheep needs to give up his body to meet His shepherd in heaven, faith will bring sheep through. The faith, great faith that come from Lord's undying love. What joy to be in you, O'Lord.

Lord, empower us, my CG and be with us always. We pray for your blessing O'Lord. Come and bless our CG. Let us tell others how great our Lord is. The only One who die for unconditional love. Our redeemer, our Saviour, our King. You are a great King because you laid your life for the nation, which could be part of your Kingdom. O'Lord come may your spirit dwell among us and make us love in Christ. For your love is perfect... so pure. Let me dwell into yours all. Your purity, your love, your faithfulness and your righteousness.

Sheep,
Edison
Ebenezer

Book of Exodus

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 14:15:00 +0000

Hey people! I found very interesting! In the bible, book of Exodus, Moses are being called by God to bring the Israelites (slave of egypt) out of egypt because God has heard their cries. Moses did many miraculous sign in order to bring Israelites out of Egypt. There is a part where Moses successfully bring them out of Egypt, the King of Egypt Pharaoh's heart was hardened and want to capture them back because there is no one to do the slavery service if Israelites were to leave Egypt. Moses then did a miracle through God's strength and that is to divide the water of red sea and make themselves cross the ocean on dry land when walls of water were at the left and right. When the Israelites passes, God commanded Moses to close up the water and drown every single army with their men, chariots and horses. Guess what? Scientist found the Ancient Chariots and bones of animals and men underneath the Red Sea! Jesus is real! Amen!

Please visit: http://www.discoverynews.us/red_sea.htm

I shall let God decides the believe in your heart. =)

Gloria in Heaven~

Life in Jesus Christ

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 03:41:00 +0000

Hello! Today is the day for service!! Wow I love Jesus! But I am still learning how to put Jesus in every area of my life, and to have faith and trust in Him for every work I wanna accomplish. I also wanna know His heart and have spiritual sight too! Prays for it~ Well this week I have encounter an incident that both God and Satan came together one after another and I felt sad and angry about it. Well.. if you wanna hear about it, continue reading!

There is a colleague in office who have learned about Jesus and he said he believe Jesus is alive! Amen to that! So, the next step is just a step of faith! But he seems to have his unspeakable reason for not taking the step. Sergeant and me were trying to let him understand the importance of taking a step of faith towards Jesus so he may experience Jesus in his life! We were all ready for the sinner's prayer! Suddenly the holy moment came, where all office personnels were lost at the scene and only left three of us. As I pray, I felt the holiness, peace and joy like how I felt during worship in service! I knew God was there! This "Holy Moment" lasted for 10 minutes and soon after, satan came striking us every direction with distractions, one after another.

As I pray again, I learned that God will give every single soul on earth a chance to come to know him. He will plan the special moment which one would come and say "Jesus, I want you to be my Lord and Saviour!" for everyone. I was very sad because I know God is sad when he has planned this moment yet he is being rejected again. I was very angry because of satan!! I have witness God's works and satan's works! It's so scary!

Anyway, ending this, knowing God is not all about logics and reasons, you need to have Faith. Otherwise, why do you have a brain and a heart!? Jesus said to His disciple in the bible, "Now you have seen me and have believed. Blessed are those who have not see me and have believed." And God do not want to appear to our sight of eye because He wants us to have faith! If today, a man came to you and say He is Jesus. I bet you definitely will think he's crazy! Why? People say they want to see to believe, but yet when they see they still don't believe. When the power of healing is happening today, people still don't believe. But in Faith, we believed in God. If one day Jesus is back, for those who have faith will surely know Him. Let's pray~

Dear Jesus, thank you for your graceful blessings and love for the people! I pray to you Lord, you will make room in the heart of men so that they could consume your presence in their life. Everything seems much necessary but Jesus you are the one the people needs. In you, we are blessed. In you, we are saved. In you, we love. In you, we have life. In you, we have everything in life. Lord, may you speak to the people in this time of prayer and they will understand in their heart. Lord, we surrender ourselves to you and so that in you, we have the true life. Lord at this time, as I repeat the names of my beloved brothers in my heart, bless them with the Truth O Lord. In the authority and power of Jesus' name, we pray. Amen!

God's Presence!

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 17:05:00 +0000

Wow! Today I really want to thank Lord for lifting up my spirit! I felt energetic today! I'm ready to be social! Lolx~ Anyway, I am praying that God will transform me in a way that I can be more sociable and tactful with people. So it will be easier to share Christ with people! I shall do my best and if there is any flaws or wrong-doings, please come and tell me ok! Thanks brothers & sisters!!

Alright today I wanna blog about several things I have learned during my unit meeting, lesson conducted by Jeremiah and some stuffs during sermon too! Today is quite a fruitful day to me as I see God has lift me up a step higher! Meaning, He provides me with more knowledge and scope to accomplish as a Christian! Thank Lord! So, what is Truth? By right the Truth is in Jesus Christ and we can only realize the Truth by being Christ-like. But nowadays, people define Truth as what majority could accept and feeds their desires. People are denying the fact and withdrawn. The real Truth in Christ is hard to achieve, but once you have realize it, it gonna be a thousand and million times valuable and joyful than the fake truth. It's hard to achieve because we are sinful by nature! To be pure and Christ-like, we must fight against satan's temptation, which most of us would fall into his trap! Therefore, it's so hard to learn the Truth in Christ! Every sin comes from thoughts, and every thoughts come from sight. In bible, book of Luke 11:34 says "Your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness." Let's pray that our Holy Spirit will intercept all the sinful thoughts in our head and replace them with repentance and prayers to God. C'mon everyone, let us only see the real Truth and acknowledge only the real Truth. Stop satisfying ourselves and give excuses so as to stay in comfort zone. Be courageous! Get out there!

The second thing I learned is about Faith. There are two types of faith. The first type is when we say the sinner's prayer and receive Jesus as our Lord and Saviour. The second faith, which is evolved through the first, is the Faith of Salvation. It comes when we gain biblical knowledge, obedience to God and serve God using the authority given to us. The Faith of Salvation is what we need to be strengthened and stand firm in Christ! One day when someone point a gun at our throat, will u deny Christ? Imagine it realistically and answer yourself honestly. If you will deny Jesus, all your christian journey will be in vain. Therefore, I believe that whenever we wanna do something, we must commit and give in the best!

The most important learning for me today other than learning how to evangelize, is using the authority given by God. As a christian, we have the authority given by our Lord to pray for others, cast away demons, prophesies and ... but how strong are we in the authority? Pastor Jasmine gave a very straight and direct example. No matter in working life or army, we always need to be commanded before we can command others. In army, we must be tekan before we got the power to tekan others. As a christian, we need to live under the authority of Christ in order to receive authority from Him. And gaining authority means more responsibility in serving God and loving people, sacrifice the less Godly commitments to serve God too. For new believers or those who are going to convert, please do not worry of what I have said in the previous sentence. One day when you experience the Grace and Love from Jesus, you will willingly sacrifice your time to serve God. And you will understand your whole life you want to surrender them and only live for God.

Well, for non-believers again, I used to think that it's coward and weak to depends on God for everything and believed in my own strength. I used to think that submitting ourselves to God sounds very devilish. But I tell you this, you think this way because you have lack of understandings. For those who knew me well, I did not have any set backs in life to cause me to rely on Jesus. I go to Jesus by the means of seeking the real Truth and Wisdom. I am not emotionally weakened then I choose Christ. It's He convinced me with the content of Bible. No offense, but there is always a chance for everyone to know about Christ, it's up to us whether we wanna spend the time learning it or arguing it. =) If wanna argue, make sure we have the full understanding of the subject we going to argue too! So we could win ourselves knowledge and wisdom, not for pride.

Long long ago....

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 14:00:00 +0000

Today while waiting for bus to go home, suddenly I had a recollection in deep memories, it's about the very first time I saw the name "Jesus". When I was very young, Jesus already threw an attachment to me. I remembered I used to by looking at the name "Jesus", the first impression was that He is someone who can be fully trusted. I do not know this person, but I know He is someone very kind. Deep in me, I grew a strong yet unsurfaced affection to this name "Jesus". I used to be a good for nothing child, who are neither good in studies nor sports. God bless me in profession in Info-Communication during the course in ITE. Soon, I am good in programming during NYP. Those are the first time I see my worth.

Next, I joined martial art and God helped me excel. Even when managing with political people, He has blessed me with certain intelligence that would suddenly developed in me so that I could survive. Why do I say it's God who gave me? Because politics and strategic subjects were not my cup of tea. I am careless, blur, insensitive and unobservant by nature. But when necessarily, I could react strategically. That was very unlike myself to begin with.

I am sure that God has been planning my conversion long long ago, beginning at the moment I felt the affection in His name. I'm thankful He has planned my journey so well that I do not lost myself and has come to know very sincere and powerful leaders in Hope Church. God has trained me well in becoming who I am today. =)

Lord Jesus, thank you in sacrificing yourself to cleanse our sin with your blood! Yet it's so heart wrenching that these days we still sin due to our sinful nature, and yet you are still loving to forgive the repentance souls. I pray your blessings for your children so that we will be strong to overcome the devil! The strong desire in bringing glory to your name often stomped and demoralized by the devil. Lord, let the Holy Spirit intercept our thoughts for thoughts become words, for words become actions, for actions become habits, for habits become character, for character become destiny. I pray that we will all have a destiny in your glory and kingdom. Lord blesses us and help us in earning the true spiritual value and not the earthly value so we may enter your kingdom! In Jesus' name we pray, Amen!

In Christ

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 13:32:00 +0000

People! We are born with characteristics and shall we not restrict ourselves. You are blessed with wisdom and intelligence to comprehend, to understand, so there may be knowledge. You are planted of emotions to feel, so there may be the Law of Morality. You are created with the full potential to understand and comprehend the Word of God but you mis-use it by the barrier of pride and self. Never will one listen without setting himself humble and in peace and balanced mentally, emotionally and spiritually blessed to receive what is given. The simplicity, but you do not believe, and you believed the complexity. Does complexity appears profound, are proud to acknowledge? Does the presence of logic quarantine Faith? Isn't Faith strengthened in True knowledge? Isn't success of men made by Faith and Knowledge? Does working in both Faith and Wisdom not leads to Truth? Well.. the Truth is simple but the blinds will not see. The ones blinded by Self and earthly matters. Since you choose to shut yourself, no man can access you but your Heavenly Father. Shall you open yourself to Him or otherwise. Shall you make a step for the Saviour will make ten. True joy and happiness are in Christ. Open the eyes in your heart heart, see for yourself!

John 20:29
Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me , you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

Lord! In the Glory of your name, bless your people in Christ! So when others seeus, they know they don't hear/see the Holy that we hear/see. Nothing can hide from your light shone from the above by you our Heavenly Father. May your people, in Christ, live in your righteousness to bring glory to your Holy Name, Jesus Christ! Be reminded brothers and sisters, repent every sins immediately and seek the righteous way our Lord will teach us, so you will not fall away. Be honest and do not hide or excuse sins in your thoughts! O'Lord, come help us in not hardening ourselves and be separate with You by sin! So we may at all times live in Your love, teachings and blessings! In Jesus' name, Amen!

The Way, The Truth, The Life.

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 14:38:00 +0000

Praise to our Lord! For the great things He has done for the people! The world must rely on Father to live the way to Truth! Recently there is new inspiration in me. For those who had accessed in my innate self, you see that I am a philosophical person. Brothers and sisters, as much as my wisdom brings me, I would like to share a simple Truth. Jesus says the Father is in Him and He is in Father. Jesus also says that He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. Let me share what have I learned from this.

In the bible, we learned how Jesus live his life and his Love for the people. We see how Jesus guide His sheeps. We see how Jesus live up to His Father's standard and carry out His will. I believe that Jesus lived his life in perfect righteousness. As a christian, we seek to be more than just a follower of Christ, we want to be his disciple and His children and His light to act in the role of Christ. We learned how to love one another. We learn to give and share. We learn to be selfless. We learn to be in the likeness of Christ. In this manner, we are learning the Way. The Way is of much free and joy! When we live the Way of Christ, we will see the Truth in our life. When we live in the Truth, we do not waste every breath and we do not live our life in vain. Instead, it is of much glory and joy! You will not be the one who say "I am sick of living" because your life will never be plain anymore! It is ever-exciting and much rejoice serving God and glorify His name, Jesus Christ! The Life given through Christ, is the ever-lasting life without being perished! The destination of Salvation Christ!

Dear Jesus! Thank you for praying with authority in your name, Jesus Christ. Lord I pray for the people who seek you be blessed by the Father, and walk with you in their lives. Lord please open the eye of the blinds and Lord you teach them how to see in the Truth, only through the eyes opened by Lord Jesus Christ. Never will they cry, never will they soar, living in the Truth made known by you our Lord, because it is of so much joy! Never will the people walk alone in the darkest part of life for they have you, the almighty God to be with them. Teach us to be your light for the lost soul in darkness. Fear has no business with us upon in darkness as your light of that much bright. In the salvation of Christ, we are freed and saved by Lord's sacrifice. Shall we not hold on much to our life but surrender our life to Him, for the loving God who never forsake us. Praise to God, the Heavenly Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who blessed us as we unite in Christ! Amen!

Why must we be strong in Christ?

gundamz07@hotmail.com (Edison) — Mon, 27 Oct 2008 15:04:00 +0000

Hello! I'm back to live again! Well.. for the past two days I have a very troubled mood. I feel myself collapsing spiritually. Unable to open to people. But today during the prayer walk, I have revived as Holy Spirit once again touch my soul! Today I also realized how important it is to be strong in Christ. As I pray to Jesus our Lord for blessings and guidance, some message appear in my thought. I hear one of the brother say that God will use us and do something that is within our capability, and God will not expect us to do something that is beyond our capability. So I realized that how important is it that we must develop strong character in ourselves, learn and develop different areas of strength. It is so that God can use us in His work! Imagine if you are a boss, I am sure you will only send the men who possess suitable skills to work on suitable missions. As our wisdom never as high as God, we do not know how is He going to work, how and who is He going to use! Therefore, it is important for us to equip ourselves with every necessary abilities so that God can use us more! Maybe if you find that God didn't use you too well, it is probably you do not possess the suitable characteristic for the particular mission! Although it is understandable that we have our uniqueness individually, but lets not make it an excuse to stay in our comfort zone. Let's go all out for Lord! It is our responsibility to bring God's blessing to others and be God's light to the lost soul. Therefore, we must not laze! Brothers and sisters, I will need you guys to help me out in expanding my area of strength too! Let us qualify and fill the necessities of God's work! Let's pray!

Dear Jesus! Thank you for reviving my soul and lighten up my life through the men's conference this morning! Lord I thank you for strengthening us all along. But Lord tonight I want to pray that you will strengthen us in the widest fields of strength! Let us all be qualified in your standard so that you can use us in your project! Lord I pray that every brothers and sisters who pray this prayer will decide in their heart to go all out for you. So that you can equip us with the necessary abilities. And so that we can be strong and influential to the people around us. And so that we can live up to your standard. Lord I pray that you will nurture us in the likeness of Christ! Oh Lord we promise that we will always seek you to empower us in different areas and we will not stay in our comfort zone all the time! Lord I thank you for your presence here tonight listening to our prayers. As we commit our life in Christ, in Jesus' name we pray. Amen!